serviceHe's everyone to me,
Anywhere I look he's staring back at me.
Once upon a time something not so amazing happened. I learned how to air guitar, and how to move my hips, and that the chorus on the TV isn't the whole song, no matter how many times I see the commercial.
I also learned that the words that I knew as a little kid aren't right, but sometimes being right is wrong and I'd rather look back on the words I came up with, than the ones that actually were.
About a year ago I figured out that Led Zeppelin was a play on words and not the name of a guy in the band, and this past few months I realized that the squiggles on the metal boxes outside on street corners spell the word alpha, and they weren't those mazes they used to give us in school that you'd solve with your pencil.
I'd hate to think that everyone is born with a reason.
I'd rather earn my reason than be born with it.
I found a world and lost it again, which seems to happen a lot. What else is there to find?
If I were Alice, I
Our storyWe kissed,
but before that, we touched.
but before that, we fell in love.
We fell in love,
but before that, we talked.
but before that, we met.
but before that, we had never even heard of each other.
We had never even heard of each other,
but before that, were we ever really happy?
I can't speak for her, but I can speak for me,
And if I'm allowed to speak truthfully, I guess I wasn't ever really happy.
But know that the moment I met you I fell in love and all negativity inside me was swept away,
Swept away only to make room for true happiness, and love. Love, which I would never betray.
Silent ScreamingThere's so much I want to say to him,
But I can't form the words on my lips.
Why can't he read between my words,
Why can't he hear my head screaming,
From the need of telling him everything?
Why can't he hear the yearning?
Must my heart break because I canst not speak
The words that my mouth feels it must hide?
Dry tears stain my cheek,
The silent cries of my heart rip
Inside of me,
Longing to break free.
My eyes releasing shattering
Piercing words that can't be heard.
Why can't you hear every part of my being
To be heard.
The only part
He seems to hear
Is my mouth,
And it has
Anger Turned InwardOne masks the fear,
By keeping it all inside.
One hides the pain,
With a smile always wide.
Each completely different,
Yet very much the same.
Anger the common factor,
A rage yet untamed.
Dwelling from within.
Something that looks back at them,
A voice that whispers only sin.
A darker half, an inner demon,
Or something much more.
Something just beneath the surface
And sinister to the core.
So much to overcome,
And still so much to grow.
All too aware,
Of what they'd rather not show.
Darkness WithinI am the monster that lurks within
Bathing in your very own sins
I am the tears you try to hide
That you won't show because of pride
I am the cold that seeps beneath your skin
Trapping all your worries within
I am the silence that rings in your ears
Encasing inside all of your fears
I am the darkness that covers your eyes
Allowing you to live with your lies
I am the whisper that you hear
That tells you death is near
Falling for a FriendI have a confession that I just have to make
If I do not say it, I fear I'll go insane.
I have a feeling that I cannot fight
It is eating at my insides
It is playing with my mind.
I really have to say this
Because you have a right to know
I feel this friendship is growing
Into the unknown.
I'm feeling something different
That I wish I knew.
I never knew I could feel this way
And feel this way for you.
I hope you don't get angry
I hope you don't get mad
Because I don't want to lose you
Forever I'd be sad.
I just wanted to let you know
This feeling that continues to grow
That I'm falling for you
Into this world called love.
I hope you aren't upset with me
Because I don't want to lose a friend
But I have this other feeling
Like I would never feel this way again.
So tell me what you are thinking
Yes, I know I'm scared.
But maybe if we hold on together
We can find a love to share.
So tell me what is going on
In that mind of yours
Because I don't want to drive myself crazy
Dancing on the sho